In my life, I find that it can sometimes feel a little mundane. I'm sure you moms know what I'm sayin! Dishes, laundry, clean up the cheerios, the spilled milk, change the diaper, dishes again, laundry again, sweep the floor, scrub the toilet.....kinda like the girl who read, "lather, rinse, repeat" on the shampoo bottle and never stopped the cycle....that's my life! So sometimes I think, "God where is the opportunity for faith?!" and "How am I supposed to keep a good attitude in this mundane existence?" Don't get me wrong, I stinkin' love staying at home with our kids, being a full time mom. Just as I type this Grayden came out of his room after being sent to his room for a time-out for disobedience and said, "Mom, I prayed to God in my room to help me have a better attitude" with a smile on his face. Moments like this make it worth the spilled milk.
Anyway, I have decided that motherhood in itself requires much faith. Everyday I have to ask God to give me more strength, more patience and more wisdom to accomplish the tasks before me and somehow not ruin these precious lives he has put in my care. I want to not only accomplish the tasks, but do it with joy. I have begun to find a deep joy in the mundane, in the dishes and the laundry. While I do them I praise God that I have dishes and laundry to do, because he has blessed us with food to eat and clothes to wear. I just keep taking my thoughts captive every time I want to have a pity party for myself and throwing them out the window, replacing them with thankfulness and doing my work as if I was doing God's laundry =) Ok, admittedly if I was doing God's laundry I would probably iron more than I do now....
The faith to step out and bring a fourth child into our home is stretching, but amazing. I have to crack up at how God asks us to do things that look impossible. Not just having four children, but if this is of God we will know it, because there is no way we could come up with the funds otherwise. Just like any huge task we take on, I know I can't do this without God's help and I am so thankful for the next thing in my life that is going to FORCE me to rely on Him! I hope that my life looks like the lives of people in Hebrews 11. "By Faith, Ashley........" Jeremey preached about this last night and I keep wondering what my line would say?
We can rejoice, too, when we run into problems and trials, for we know that they help us develop endurance. 4 And endurance develops strength of character, and character strengthens our confident hope of salvation. 5 And this hope will not lead to disappointment. For we know how dearly God loves us, because he has given us the Holy Spirit to fill our hearts with his love." Romans 5:4.
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